Day Won

I feel the need to pen

A paper note in pencil

I just don’t need mistakes erased

Let’s have them for posterity

We can analyze the structure

And open up the verbs

Let’s dig down deeper into feelings

I’ve never heard of before now

It’s never been, and when it’s then

I’ll remember how this

Disorienting, deflating led me

Deeper down the rabbit hole,

The candy bowl in a Halloween bank

The day the rent was all mine again

They said I could have my friends again

I bet this time ahead will keep me

Jumping forward

I’m so bored of all the jump scares

I’m tired of all the distractions

I’m ready for some traction,

I’m soaking up all the grease

Erasing all the folds in my notebook,

My list, my hand written tales of

Happiness and gratitude and powerlessness

I will, I have, I said the truth,

I bit the apple and broke a tooth

My health insurance pulled it out

And I forgot to write down

What I was talking about

I just wanted my pen

To paper in a pencils

Color so I could change the phrases

When I get older

When I grow up

When things are better

When I’ve had enough

When the lines are solid

When I know the truth

When the phone stops ringing

And the silence chooses

How I talk to god

How I say the words

How I know I’m listening

I’ll have to write more verses